Her Own Lies
She closes her eyes, holds back the tears no one can see
And uses her smiles to mask the pain she walks with daily
No one knows the care she takes to keep the hurt inside
Far away from the scorn and judgement of prying eyes
Making excuses that mend nothing torn or even shattered
She holds the struggles within and still remains battered
Her flesh has seen too many blows that heal with time
But the words cut deep and he knows just where to slice
It is her eyes that hold the truth but nobody looks close
Because to them it’s just a stare but to her, it’s a hearse
Carrying all the tears that she holds back from the world
Wondering where she went wrong to be somebody’s fool
As the make-up never seems enough to hide the naked truth
Because she walks around with the load of her own excuse
Is there a way to pack and leave without ever looking back?
But his threats are so real and the running would never stop
She hears the door slam; he screams and enters her path
Without an escape she freezes, waiting to feel his wrath
Not knowing his reasons or even how to make him calm
Frozen long before he reaches, she panics in total alarm
Her heart sounds rhythms of rapid beats, no one can hear
And she only awaits the certainty of her ever present fear
With angry steps he advances, smashing defensive hands
And rains blows on a helpless body and a broken woman
Her cries meant nothing to him as she screams for mercy
Even though she did nothing wrong for which to be guilty
A child stands looking, holding a doll with tears in her eyes
He looks around and walks away, feels no need to apologize
She runs crying out to a mother who thanks her in her mind
And yet again she vows to herself, this will be the last time
Deep down she wants to let go and release him of his ties
Yet every time he hits her, she still believes her own lies
Oakley Lyle is an author and poet – Visit his Facebook Page HERE
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